Snow in San Marcos!

a few weeks ago we had snow! not just a little snow, alot! If you know me you know snow is not one of my favorite things but if it only sticks for the morning and it cancels school I suppose its okay :). 

Driving home tonight I realized how truly blessed I am to have a life that I enjoy so much. 

I am so happy with the place I have found myself in, college student, steady jobs and wonderful friends.

I could never dream of a better life for myself at a 20 year old. 

It makes me excited for the future, my summer in Italy. but really,  I am so satisfied just living my life day to day, going to yoga, going to school, driving through the hill country and enjoying the company of great friends, roommates and my lovely boy. 

I hope that I can always lay down at night and be so content with the direction the world is leading me in. 

But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:

To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.

To know the pain of too much tenderness.

To be wounded by your own understanding of love;

And to bleed willingly and joyfully.

To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;

To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;

To return home at eventide with gratitude;

And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips. 

This Year.

After practically drooling over the Miss America competition last night, I got the feeling that I usually do after I watch a glitzy pageant. I WANT TO DO ANOTHER!!!  There so addicting and such a good experience in dealing with people and how to present yourself. I loved my time on the pageant circuits and often think about the days where all that mattered was working toward that one big goal, the crown! After coming back to reality, I usually revisit the reasons why I have decided that my career is over for now. maybe :).

School is pretty important to me right now. Being a good student and doing well in my classes is my very first priority. You only get the opportunity to be an undergraduate student once. I'm trying my best to make the most out of both living on my own and enjoying the luxury of not having to be completely financially independent.

Pageants, as fun as they may be are very expensive. Spending an insane amount of money on something that isn't school is pretty hard for me to justify at this point in my 20-year-old life. As sad as it is I do have to realize that money doesn't grow on trees!

I guess in the end my real justification is that I would rather spend my thousand dollars on a plane ticket to somewhere I've never been, then on a fancy designer dress that I will adore, and wear once and let it hang in my closet until I am okay to let the dress just become a fond memory.

but for old times sake, I'll post a picture and dream about a time where I have achieved my education goals and want to strive again for a crown.